When the war effort called, Ms. Diego was given a choice faced by many artists. Should she set aside her passions and serve? Should she remain a lover, rather than a fighter? Should she dress up her cowardice in principle and try and survive under a yellow banner painted white? Not that other artists lack for conscience, but what we know of Sable tells us that, being a survivor, principle is not generally something she’ll die for.
But when push came to shove, she chose to go. Not always, because even the best soldiers need leave, and after her flight from the East Coast to the heartland with her remaining near and dear - most notably Ms. Trafford and Ms. Darrow, the latter viewed as her charge in Ms. Quinn’s absence - standing watch amidst the isolation of the Great Plane grew too difficult to bear, her vigilance curdling into a sense of uselessness since, when push came to shove, nobody really needed her to remain safe. If it were ever anything else, it became only her own sense of responsibility, one drawn increasingly afield as more and more news of the war trickled in from those actually fighting in or fleeing from it.
So the time came that she reached out to one Ygraine FitzRoy, erstwhile rival turned friend, her seeming utter opposite who, in this time and place, suddenly appeared like a model for a better way of life. Commitment, involvement, interest not just in warfighting and fascist-killing (though not afraid of that either) but in collecting the facts of the struggle, in preparing for the story to be told as truthfully as it could. And this last, more than anything, appealed to Ms. Diego’s sensibilities. When the dust settled, there would of course be room for music that helped people forget. But what about music to help them remember?
Ms. Diego went to war. She snuck and scrounged and fought, but it wasn’t like it was before. More desperate than her vagrant days, yet more certain, more purposeful- not merely stealing the next day but trying to wrench back history itself. She photographed terrible things, heard terrible stories, learned to treat her body and her ability as instruments of a greater purpose. She killed men, when she had to, and these things change a person. Ms. Diego was changed.
And so when the war was over she did not return to her near and dear. She didn’t try and play house, as she had one intended. She hit the road and began to live the life she might have had she put aside illusions and committed to the work of being a musician. She toured, not in grand style as she once dreamed, not resurrecting Woodstock or what-have-you. She played at roadside venues, played for tips and beer money, played to improve at her craft, played for the sake of playing itself. And her music was, almost certainly, greatly improved, as was her sense of self, her sense of patience, her understanding of a world that might speak in signs but rarely anoints messiahs obviously. Her war-tempered body softened into a true maturity, and she began at last to resemble herself, not just the masks she took on and off.
But then the call came again- the Safe Zone, the reconstruction, the convergence of familiar people, changed, in a familiar place, ravaged. In the hopes of rebuilding. And the choice wasn’t so hard this time, because she had learned to choose. She caught a bus headed back east, and was on her way home. She’s coming home.