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Once Upon a Time, There Was a Beautiful Princess…
Very few people have lived lives like Odessa's. Most children are doted on by their parents. Most parents try to give their children a normal life. Odessa Knutson never knew her parents. She was named for the Company facility she was born at in Odessa, Texas and given the maiden name of the nurse who took care of her for the formative years of her life - though the definition of being cared for is subjective. The girl had nothing resembling the life of an average girl. She was tutored in the Odessa facility for several years - long enough for the determination to be made that the girl was smart. She was transferred to New York's Hartsdale facility, where she was put on the fast track to become a doctor and surgeon for The Company. Odessa was no Doogie Howser, but she did begin practicing medicine full-time well before most do. Having a selective education definitely helped speed that along. The girl was never street smart by any means - one only needs that if they're actually able to see the streets. It's hard to be well-rounded in such circumstances.
And This Princess Was Very Special…
It never occurred to Odessa that her ability was unusual. She grew up surrounded by people who were special, and people who weren't. One of us, one of them. So, when she was an assisting, hands-on nurse in her first surgery, it came as no surprise to her when her ability manifested under the stress of the procedure. It wasn't exactly something she suspected she would be able to do, but she simply reasoned that this was as logical a time for it to happen. Already sheltered as it was, after her manifestation, it was determined that the girl would not be allowed out of the facility, lest she fall into the wrong hands. Her general education was allowed to slip further in favor of honing her newfound power.
But Not All Was Right in the Princess' Kingdom…
Still, Odessa was remarkably well-adjusted for a girl in her situation, if a little naïve. Perhaps the most maladjusted aspect of the girl, however, is her lack of attachment and compassion for her patients. Working with violent offenders hardened Doctor Knutson's heart early on. It's hard to have sympathy for a patient who would sooner kill you than thank you for keeping them alive. Not to mention the amount of prisoners that would die in Company facilities - through natural causes or execution of one sort or another. Odessa learned very quickly that attachment leads only to heartache.
Then, One Day, a Gallant Prince Came Along…
Then Odessa was assigned a new patient. One who couldn't die. Adam Monroe immediately fascinated the young doctor and she allowed herself to care for the well-being of her patient beyond the truly clinical for the first time in a long while. With Adam as a regular part of her rounds, and routinely drawing his regenerative blood, she found herself amused by the tales of his extraordinarily long life. Though she's never admitted it to anyone, including Adam himself, she's aligned with his beliefs and ideas about humanity, the state of the world, and what should be done.
The Bishop Decided It Was Time For a Change of Scenery - He Exchanged Her Lonely Tower for a Deep, Dark Cellar…
When New York was decimated by the bomb, Odessa was relocated again to the Bronx, where she would be better able to focus her medicinal efforts on the citizens, agents, and evolved prisoners of the City. To Odessa, one facility is truly no different than the next. She's provided with the same equipment in each, and she isn't allowed outside. Different faces, no friends. Adam moved with her, and that was all she cared about. She was given a new batch of patients - those on Level Five.
But the Prince Was Taken From the Princess' Cellar…
When security at the Bronx facility was compromised, Bob Bishop personally dragged Doctor Knutson from her office on Level Five, locking her in his own office on the ground level. Though resentful of this, feeling she could been of some use, Odessa obeyed and stayed put until someone came to retrieve her - to dig a bullet out of the man who sent her into hiding. She was informed that her favorite patient had been taken from the facility.
The Tower and the Cellar Have Become Prisons, and the Princess Longs to be Rescued…
Devastated, but not without hope, Odessa found solace in her newest patient - Peter Petrelli. Her interest in him wasn't quite as keen as the interest she had in Adam, but to her? He was a tool she could use to manipulate the outside world. Not that she knew what that really looked like.
When No Prince Came, the Princess Rescued Herself
Using her ingenuity and abusing the trust placed in her by the Company, Odessa escaped the facility in the Bronx. First, simply to test if she could slip away for a couple of hours without being missed. The second time was much an exercise in the same, only she didn't count on becoming lost.
Exiled From Her Kingdom, the Princess Sought Refuge with a Gray Knight
One boy's evil is another girl's topic of study, and so it came to pass that Odessa Knutson would find herself drawn once again to Gabriel Gray. Could fate have facilitated such serendipity? Such things are better left contemplated by doctors of philosophy — the doctor of medicine couldn't care less. Freedom comes with its price, however. Much like Adam and Eve with their apple, or perhaps more fittingly Rapunzel and her tower, Odessa quickly discovered the world holds all the evils that she was warned about. Perhaps the Bishop had kept her locked away down in Level Five - as the witch did with keeping her surrogate daughter high up in her tower in the fairytale - to protect her after all.
Doctor Knutson was a sweet girl once, under the clinical exterior - if a little strange. But the sudden shift in her entire world has left her enormously unbalanced. Skittish and mistrusting, she finds herself entirely at odds within her own mind. The girl she used to be wants to trust and to make friends, while the woman who's been betrayed wants to keep her allies at arm's length, but make near-bedfellows of her enemies. Possibly a too-literal misconstrument of keeping your friends close, but your enemies closer.
Odessa has something of a God complex, stemming not only from her medical training, but also from her ability. For quite some time, she boasted herself untouchable. While there's still some smugness playing out, a great amount of it is for show - an attempt to quell trouble before it gets out of hand. Her belief that her ability makes her somehow better than most has dictated that Doctor Knutson classifies very few people as her equal. Those that she has, however, she holds either in the highest esteem, or deepest contempt. Regardless, she feels a certain sort of respect for them, though some is given more grudgingly than others.
Despite the degree of protection afforded to her by her ability and the bravado she displays because of it, Odessa has an intense need to have a champion. This role has been previously filled by Sylar, Ethan, Wu-Long, and even Eric Doyle in a sense. She feels most comfortable with a protector, perhaps unconsciously seeing it as a more acceptable way to fulfil the needs of her co-dependent nature.
An intense need to know and understand things drives Doctor Knutson. Sometimes it drives her to pursue avenues she may not otherwise have an interest in. Case in point, a fascination with the apparent union between the personalities of Kazimir Volken and Peter Petrelli is enough to encourage her to put aside her hatred for both men. All things told, Odessa had hoped to study Petrelli the way she had studied Sylar, but they seemed quickly destined to be enemies.
While not a murderer, Odessa has very little trouble killing if push comes to shove. It's rare She'll kill as a pre-emptive strike, or truly out of cold blood, but she can easily justify killing in self-defense - even if she could have simply used her ability to walk away.
Doctor Odessa Knutson | |
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Disorder | Rating |
Paranoid | Very High |
Schizoid | Very High |
Schizotypal | Moderate |
Antisocial | High |
Borderline | Moderate |
Histrionic | Very High |
Narcissistic | Very High |
Avoidant | High |
Dependant | High |
Obsessive-Compulsive | High |
Doctor Odessa Knutson possesses the ability to manipulate time in pockets around her. Generally, this means the immediate area around her that she can see. She can center her powers on a single person or event to freeze it, while leaving the rest of the world to play out around it. Using hand gestures helps to focus her, especially when isolating smaller targets. The duration of her ability lasts for as long as she can hold her concentration. Even if she leaves the area she has frozen, so long as she can focus her mind on what that scene looked like in still motion, she can keep it held. That task is extremely difficult, however, so the hold tends to break shortly after her departure.
The area of effect for Odessa's ability is mostly limited by her line of sight. However, if she knows her surroundings well, she may be able to freeze more. The larger the area she tries to control, the more taxing it is. The Company believed she has the potential to reverse time or speed it up, but she has yet to exhibit the specific behavior. Perhaps it is the next step in her evolution.
The restoration of her ability has come with a terrible price. Each time she makes use of it, time ticks away on the doomsday clock. Too much, and her old wounds will eventually catch up to her.
When Darren Stevens' ability went haywire and he restored Odessa to life and power at the cost of his own, she also took possession of his ability to reverse the flow of time. The cost of this is unknown to Odessa, and she's none to keen to test it.
Tigers cannot change their stripes.
Appendices
Dreams are never weak like we are. Drunk or sober. |
Timeline
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Damsel | Prisoner | Healer | Betrayer | Resurrected | Haunted |
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- This is the Story of How I Died
- The Brief Life of Brooke Lynwood
- Odessa's Adventures in the Land of Oz
- Twelve Steps
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Relationships
This section is a constant work in progress. Last Updated: January 12th 2018
Doctor Bella Sheridan
The New Perspective
Odessa has known Doctor Sheridan for years. The two worked together when the younger doctor was still within the confines of the Company. Though Odessa has a certain distaste for psychology and psychiatry, feeling that too many medical conditions are dismissed as psychological, she is still able to see the merit to the study. Psychopathy does exist, after all. (She herself is very much proof of this.) People like Doctor Sheridan make the field tolerable, in Odessa's mind. The two were able to discuss that branch of medicine on an academic level, and Odessa would appreciate the way her counterpart wouldn't attempt to (openly) analyse her, or urge her to seek therapy.
In her new life, Odessa was mildly surprised to discover her old colleague had managed to find her way to the Institute. She even appeared to be doing well for herself there. Initially, Odessa only began attending therapy for the sake of ensuring that she would be granted a position within the Institute, rather than relegated to an underground laboratory or locked into another glorified cage. But something funny happened. Odessa discovered she actually liked Doctor Sheridan. The two quickly broke the accepted boundaries of doctor-patient relationship and actually formed a proper friendship of it.
Doctor's orders. Honest.
Odessa truly considers Bella to be her best friend. The other doctor seems to understand Odessa's little quirks, idiosyncrasies, and eccentricities, and doesn't react in a horrified manner to any of them. Bella being comfortable with Odessa in all her bordering-on-high-functioning-sociopathic glory sparked a bond of trust that Odessa doesn't share with many people, causing her to be open and honest during her therapy sessions, and even more so while out together as friends.
Such a friendship does not come without confusion, however. Odessa was initially unable to entirely dismiss the fear that Bella may have been reporting back to their superiors about the state and extent of her troubled thoughts, though she was able to relegate it to the back of her mind. More confusing, however, was the way that she had begun to wonder if there could be something more than just a friendship between her and Bella. This culminated in a totally experimental kiss while drunk and high, and left Odessa with more questions than answers. Like where do they go from here?
Over the following months, the two women shared a tight bond that allowed them to step out of the roles of therapist and client, and ultimately Odessa came to realise that what she felt for Bella was in fact love. She found it somewhat frightening a prospect at first – the idea that she may love a woman when she considers herself straight, but was confident Bella felt the same about her.
She took a leap of faith on her twenty-seventh birthday that resulted in the nightingale landing flat on her face. Bella rejected her, confessing that she was in love with the man she had cried on Odessa's shoulder about. Hurt, but still able to understand, Odessa found it easier then to encourage her friend to seek refuge with the Ferrymen. As much as it pains her to let Bella goes, Odessa knows it's for the best.
Besides, it takes away some of the complication in their relationship…
Michal Valentin
The Shark
When she was just a young girl, Odessa Knutson met a handsome young Company agent from overseas (wherever that was) named Michal Valentin. She was just learning Russian, mostly medical terms, and attempted to converse with him, more confident in her skill than she had any right to feel. He laughed at her stumbling words, and woefully American inflection. It left an impression on her. It left her with the determination to get better, so that she might one day impress him.
She didn't have a chance to do that for many, many years. It was purely chance that had Odessa crossing paths again with Valentin, beneath the oppressive confines of the Dome. Years of rumours about bigotry and murder had never really had the effect such rumours are meant to have on those who hear them, but still Odessa exercised some caution. Perhaps fortunately for Michal, ruthlessness and a willingness to do whatever it takes to get things done appeal to Odessa, and so she aided him in his plan to bring down the Dome, and keep its creator from falling into government hands.
That may have backfired on her. A little bit. But it did prove some (terribly misguided) sense of loyalty to the man. She feels no pity for the cruelty he endured at the hands of his former partner with the Company. She does, however, feel sympathy for being made to feel vulnerable and forced to beg, and believes he did right in killing him, if only because she's terribly biased in his favour. Odessa makes no secret her admiration for Valentin, citing that even without an ability, the man is never powerless. His honesty with her (as much as he chooses to be) has only cemented her affection.
This can only come back to haunt her in some terrible way. Deep down, Odessa realises this. Call her an optimist, she simply hopes it never comes to that. Or that one day he'll change his mind about her, and remember that she began life as a harmless young girl, rather than manifested monster.
When her ability was taken from her, she knew she wanted to reconnect with Valentin. Odessa wanted to ask him to teach her to be as strong as he is. When Devon Clendaniel approached her to set up a meeting, she had her excuse. By then, she realised more than just her ability had been altered. Her very genetics were changed. It was in Michal's presence that she confirmed her status as non-Evolved.
He's promised her to teach her what it means to be human. She'll consider it a consolation prize after all that's been stolen from her. The two have worked together to unravel the web that is The Commonwealth Institute, allowing her to take some measure of revenge. She also acts as his eyes and ears within the Eltingville Blocks.
Agent Doctor Calvin Sheridan
The Trouble
All right, kids. Here's where it gets complicated.
Odessa and Calvin met working at the Institute. She took an instant liking to him with his orange dreadlocks and thick eyeliner. He seemed to have a thing for her choice of shoes. It was lust at first sight, if we're honest. Had Odessa not been convinced her then-partner was dead, and thus feeling sorry for herself, she may have thrown Calvin out when he showed up at her apartment after curfew and wasted.
Because he's an asshole.
Instead, she took him to bed. Then decided the encounter was enjoyable enough to ignore his more acerbic qualities. The things we do for lust.
A shared affection for liquor and sex bonded Odessa to Calvin. Having not had anything resembling a stable relationship before (not that what those two have qualifies as a relationship, or even stable), she found herself eager to indulge in frequent rendezvous and synchronised "coffee breaks" at work. That he seemed to know more about her than she knew about him presented her with a puzzle she wanted to solve.
It turns out that the mystery behind the man is that he's a time traveller, and the son of her best friend.
See? Told you it was complicated.
And somewhere along the line, Odessa decided she quite liked having Calvin in her life. Even if that's a bit masochistic. He's fiercely intelligent, and ruthless when the situation calls. Though terribly evasive about any aspect of his past Odessa hasn't figured out for herself, sarcastic and mean and always quick to assure her that nothing is about her, even when she didn't think it was.
Calvin's told Odessa that he's in the past to see the survival of his species. If that isn't a turn-on for a girl, what is? He's even said that he loves her, without her having said she loves him first. Or at all. That he also promised to kill her if she stands in his way did nothing to quell her affections. Unleashing a deadly virus – which she subsequently managed to catch – also couldn't put her off. (Perhaps this is psychopathy at its finest.) Though there is just… one small issue. It's where things get further complicated. She's no longer a member of his species.
And what he might do when he finds out terrifies her.
Daphne Millbrook
The Pixie
Daphne approached Odessa in the strangest of ways, suddenly showing up in her apartment seconds after François said he was sending someone to meet her. Fortunately for Daphne, Odessa is no stranger to odd occurrences and meetings. She's already consorted with serial killers, and megalomaniacs with delusions of grandeur, so Daphne's entrance into her life really wasn't too terrible.
In fact, Odessa made fast friends with Daphne. This could partially be due to the way an experience like getting stuck in 1945 brings people together. But Daphne is a genuine ray of sunshine in the otherwise bleak world Odessa feels she dwells in.
Daphne flits about, seemingly carefree in the way Odessa wishes she could be. Quick with a joke and loose with morals when it comes to things like obtaining property, Daphne's a good fit for Odessa and the two don't see each other nearly often enough. Odessa knows she's a bad person, but Daphne doesn't seem to care. This may make them best friends. Daphne just maybe doesn't know it.
Agent Veronica Sawyer
The Secret Agent
When Martin Crowley conscripted Odessa to take down Sylar, he assigned her to work with Agent Veronica Sawyer. Odessa doesn't know a whole lot about Veronica, but she knows enough to question her loyalty to the Institute – something the doctor is hard-pressed to fault the agent for. This makes Veronica a valuable potential ally in the future, should Odessa ever decide to get out.
It turns out that Odessa's instincts about Veronica Sawyer were correct. The two crossed paths during the fall of the Institute's Arcology, where Agent Sawyer saved Doctor Price's life. The two certainly wish they'd realized the other was a traitor, because that could have made things so much easier.
Ellie Bishop
The Kindred
Elle Bishop had everything Odessa Knutson ever wanted: Family and freedom. While she never fully understood or appreciated Elle's unique circumstances, the other girl had parents and she was free to walk around outside. She was even made an agent. While she envied the girl, she never realised she was being envied in return. Bob Bishop would make a point of praising Odessa in front of his daughter, possibly in an attempt to drive her to achieve her goals. Or the goals he wanted for her. Oblivious to the fact that she was merely a pawn, she never understood the contempt Elle held for her. Secretly, she always wanted to be friends with Elle, instead chose to act out by stealing the girl's shoes now and again.
As Odessa lay dying in the ruins of Sea View Hospital on Staten Island after her failed attempt to murder Eileen Ruskin, it was Elle that found her and called in the cavalry. She revealed how they were manipulated as children, the same as Odessa had done ten years in the future, aided by the knowledge Arthur Petrelli had bestowed upon her. Odessa doesn't know if she can trust Ellie, but she wants to. And that counts for something.
Sadly, Odessa's instability and poor decision-making skills are rivalled and surpassed only by Elle's, and the friendship was cut short when Elle was removed from Institute service. For someone as ambitious and serving of her own goals as Odessa, throwing her full support behind Elle is currently out of the question. Fear of being Haitian'd is simply too strong to allow Odessa to break away from the Institute to pursue her wayward friend, lest it be seen as a betrayal. Fortunately, Elle seems to have a strong support system in place, leaving Odessa less concerned about her friend's well-being.
And now, she has visions that promise they will someday be reunited, if not under the best of circumstances.
Sasha Kozlow
The Predator
Doctors Kozlow and Price worked together under Carlisle Dreyfus. He was the first of their ranks to confirm that Dreyfus appeared to have lost his grip on what is reasonable, and suggested they find a way to handle it that wouldn't result in further loss of life.
She's seen the way his eyes twinkle unkindly when he thinks she isn't looking, but it doesn't bother her. There's something about the man that draws her in, but she's under no illusions that he feels any sort of kinship with her.
Dreyfus finally called Odessa on her treachery and forced her to lure members of Team Charlie into a trap. When she knocked the man off his balance in order to save Teo Laudani's life, he dragged her down onto his knife, and all but eviscerated her. Sasha used his medical knowledge and his ability to ensure she would live. Odessa is still only beginning to realise the price she's paid to live to fight another day. It wouldn't be the first time she's offered up a pound of flesh in an attempt to cheat death. All the same, Odessa is exceedingly grateful to Sasha, and imagine she owes him a favour in the future.
Abby Beauchamp
The Saint
Odessa first crossed paths with Abby when her medical skills weren't enough to heal Eileen's wounds. She offered to kill the girl for Sylar, so he could take her ability. Her offer rebuffed, Odessa held a silent resentment for the healer for quite some time. She was only too happy to assist Carlisle Dreyfus when he asked her be a spy, and repeatedly asked for permission to simply kill her.
Things are much different now.
Abby's unconditional friendship and benevolent nature baffle Odessa to no end, being somehow unable to comprehend why she would want to be friends. Odessa trusts Abby when she has no one else to turn to, though only as a last resort. It isn't as though Odessa feels bad about taking advantage of a person or anything. Abby's just… special. That's all.
Susan Ball
The Benefactor
Susan Ball came to Odessa's bedside while she was recovering from near death at the hands of Carlilse Dreyfus. (Or rather, his knife.) She had recovered 'Inger from the freezing cold after she escaped from Old Lucy's before the building burned to the ground. Much like Eileen, she proposed that Odessa join the Ferrymen, agreeing to help secure the woman false identification and assist in acquiring the equipment required to run a clinic from the basement of Gun Hill.
Since then, Susan has looked out for Odessa, ensuring that she has what she needs to be comfortable, and perhaps more importantly, productive.
Susan is the only member of the Ferry Odessa feels she can trust after her attempts to murder Eileen Ruskin.
Hiro Nakamura
The Equal
Odessa used to hate Hiro Nakamura out of misguided spite, as he was an enemy of Adam, and jealousy for the fact that he was not only immune to the effects of her ability, but he was also capable of more than she. But when he appeared to her and vaccinated her against the H5-N10 virus, and sent her on a cryptic quest, she began to change her tune.
She realises there is much she could learn from Hiro about her potential. And now that Odessa has more breadcrumbs, she knows he could also help trace her past. She isn't sure that he would help her, but she suspects he'll owe her a favour sooner or later.
Hiro seemed to be rather keen to prevent Odessa's death by the Five-Ten Virus, leaving Odessa to wonder what the future has in store for her, and why Hiro Nakamura cares so much about sparing her life amongst all the others that were lost. If she could track him down, she'd have a lot of questions to ask him.
Teodoro Laudani
Il Protettore
A former roommate while they both shared residency at Old Lucy's, Teo proved himself fiercely loyal to those he's close to. Yet, when Odessa came clean as a traitor, he also proved tolerant and forgiving, offering her protection in exchange for information and keeping up her ruse. Odessa doesn't think she has any right to consider Teodoro a friend, as much as she might like to be one.
Her connection to Teo is dubious at best, because Odessa fears if he ever finds out what she tried to do to Eileen, they'll be enemies.
François Allègre
Le Bon Sens
François was Odessa's first target when she began working for Carlisle Dreyfus. She played a heartbroken mademoiselle, speaking to him in his native French as an attempt to grab his attention, and earn his trust. It was he that began to make her question her choice to spy on Abigail and those under her roof. François is steadfast, and trustworthy. Qualities Odessa doesn't see in herself, but admires in others.
He seems sad, perhaps despite attempts to hide or bury it. Having seen the man he was in 1945, she is certain she can't blame him for it.
Devon Clendaniel
The Misguided
Devon Clendaniel was Eric Doyle's ally in the final stand at the fall of the Dome. That alone should be enough to make him an enemy. However, Odessa vacillates between hating the boy, and feeling sorry for the hardship he's endured to make him the individual he is now. She understands in some way what it's like to feel you've lost everything, and that the only thing left is to lash out at the perceived oppressors and those who aid and abet them.
She may have suggested to Michal Valentin that Devon should be killed, and she may not have warned Devon of that suggestion. Sometimes, you just have to let the chips fall where they may.
Officer Jones
The FRONTLINE Boy
Jameson Jones was present in the Dome, and there at the attack on the Suresh Center. When Michal Valentin arrived seeking Amphodynamine, he was noticed by JJ, and he along with Odessa took the man prisoner. When Valentin explained the situation, and that he knew how to end it, JJ and Odessa agreed to help.
It was Odessa's mistake for assuming he was fully on board with the plan. She trusted he understood the importance of keeping Malcolm Pitt out of government hands, even if it meant lathering their own with his blood. When she attempted to engage him in conversation at a gallery highlighting the survivors of the Dome over Roosevelt Island and Queens, she was somewhat surprised to discover that he wanted nothing to do with her.
That said, Odessa is sure she could secure Officer Jones' assistance in the future if she presents him with the right cause.
Nick York
The Lover
Odessa met Nick York by chance on Staten Island. He initially mistook her for a hooker, unsurprisingly. Finding she was a doctor that wouldn't ask questions, however, prompted him to pay her a visit when he found himself injured. He was just what the wounded woman needed. Despite the scars she'd received, Nick assured Odessa that she was beautiful.
And he proved his attraction as well.
But fate is cruel. York is only an alias, and Nick's actual surname is Ruskin – Eileen's brother. Though the two grew close and Odessa eventually began to grow genuinely fond of him as a person and as someone she could pursue a relationship with, rather than simply a wonderful distraction, Nick inevitably discovered the role she played in his sister's blindness. The attempts on her life.
Spiking a glass of champagne with paralytics, Nick threatened to kill Odessa. Rather than leave her with more scars to remember the encounter by, he instead left her powerless, and helpless, and simply walked out of her life.
There is a part of Odessa that still misses Nick dearly. He's perhaps the biggest reason she came to regret what she did to Eileen. She only wishes she had the chance to explain her motives, what she had been told, and how much remorse she feels for it now.
Odessa also hopes that if the day comes where she has to answer for what she's done to Eileen, it's Nick that she finds herself answering to. He's the only one who might show her mercy. Even if it comes as a bullet to her head.
Magnes J. Varlane
The Naïve
Magnes Varlane initially showed himself to Odessa as a costumed hero, after she'd stolen prescription painkillers from a pharmacy. He urged her to seek help.
She urged him to go to hell.
Eventually the two came to be acquainted under different circumstances. He bought her a drink, and then tried to take her home with him. She accepted the drink and refused the offer of sex. She did agree to start dating him initially because he believed he had a way to restore her ability to her. When she discovered his father had some sway within the Institute, she saw an opportunity.
Then quickly realised it was an opportunity she wouldn't have the chance to grasp. Magnes' inability to face up to what Odessa considers to be their reality prompted her to walk away from him. The fact that he endangered the Ferrymen – people she still cares about – only cemented her need to get away from Manges.
Lest she kill him.
Mister Varlane
The Unhinged
What the fuck just happened here?
Mister Varlane appears to consider himself a member of the scattered and mostly defunct Vanguard, which is news to Odessa. He called a meeting with her and instructed her to return to the Ferry, and work for Eileen. Or rather, he instructed her to spy on Eileen on his behalf.
Realistically, he was asking her to return to the Ferry and a swift death sentence.
She told him to fuck off.
He threatened her life and limb. With the ability she knows him to possess (not counting the ones she doesn't know he has at his disposal), she felt the best course of action would be to incapacitate the man and run for her life.
That's worked out rather well. Surprisingly.
Peter Petrelli
The Bomb
There are many reasons why Odessa hates Peter Petrelli. She isn't sure what tops the list. If she had to pick just one big reason, however, she would have to say that Petrelli leaving Sylar with the blame for the explosion in Manhattan is it. Sure, there's a lot of smaller reasons that probably invoke more hate - like the time he cracked her ribs and meant to kill her. That was kind of a big deal. Or how he couldn't control his own stupid powers and teleported her into the hands of a psychopath who nearly cut off her fingers. That's also a good reason not to like him.
Or maybe the fact that he just isn't as easily manipulated by her bittersweet smile and her sorrowful eyes as she would like him to be is enough.
Big Reason Number Two: Peter Petrelli killed God. Don't think about that one too hard. He knows what he did.
Doctor Simon Broome
The Mastermind
Simon Broome is a riddle shrouded in an enigma and wrapped up in a fortune cookie, or some other such nebulous analogy, excessively suggestive of mystery. He seems kindly enough, though she isn't naïve enough to believe in that appearance and demeanour. He offered her, in his words, "professional respect" in return for her service to the Institute, rather than threaten her. He didn't open up with a dossier outlining her many past sins. He offered her a job, and a chance at a blank slate. An honest to God fresh beginning. How could she resist?
He spoke to her of great work, much the same as she remembers Kazimir Volken doing. Though when Simon Broome speaks of doing great things, it smacks much less of bringing about the end of the world. Perhaps it's just a ploy, but Doctor Broome seems as though he's almost fond of Odessa, and she's sure he has the answers to so many of her questions. Though he has a most uncanny way of creating several more questions each time he offers her an answer.
Director Desmond Harper
The Snake
Agent Desmond Harper is a source of some conflict for Odessa. On one hand, if he hadn't insisted that she be found, she may have been so much carrion. On the other hand, he's part of the reason the Company is no more. And he may be the reason why Martin Crowley is dead. Still, there is a part of Odessa that wants to believe that all of that is just business, and following orders. She follows his orders, and reports to him of her own volition. If we're honest, Odessa has a fair amount of respect for Harper. He's ambitious, and serving him well looks like a very good means to an end, currently.
Doctor Harve Brennan
The Boss
Doctor Brennan is Odessa's immediate superior within the Institute. Unlike everyone else she's ever worked under, he isn't immediately distrusting of her. In fact, he's introduced her to his wife, and his children. His daughters even adore her, and she adores them – though she doesn't broadcast that fact. She's jealous of the life the Brennans have in spite of all the craziness surrounding them.
The two don't always see eye to eye in the field, but Brennan treats her fairly, which is something Odessa endlessly appreciates. Despite her conspiracy with Yana Blite, and the deeds of her past, Brennan is willing to give her the benefit of the doubt. Perhaps when he should not. He's pledged to help Odessa after the wrongs the Institute has done her, however he can. He might even be someone Odessa can count among her short list of friends.
Doctor Elvira Illyana Blite
The Contagion
Let's not mince words here. Odessa initially had nothing but disdain for Yana Blite when she met her. The nature of her ability, as she understood it, made her someone Odessa wanted to keep her distance from. It was only when she was assigned to help the virologist research the new strain of H5-N10 that she came to realise that the two aren't so terribly different in their ideals.
Kindred spirits, after a fashion, Odessa quickly developed a respect for her fellow doctor. It helped that when Odessa took ill with the most devastating strain of the 5-10, Yana caused the virus to eradicate itself from her system. Had she been less reluctant to admit that she'd contracted the strain that effects non-Evolved humans, she may have spared Yana from being shot by Calvin.
Then again, if she hadn't been monologuing like a Bond villain, Yana may have been able to spare herself that fate.
She'll get better. Odessa will send chocolates.
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The Thief
Odessa has no idea who this motherfucker is…
But he's just made the top of her hit list.
When she gets her hands on the bastard that stole her ability, she's going to make him tell her how she can get it back.
And if he doesn't put up too much of a fuss about it, she might just kill him.
Eileen Ruskin
The Bird Nemesis
Sensing immediately that she was disliked by the other woman, Odessa was initially wary of Eileen. But when Eileen lied for her and helped her, she was surprised. And grateful.
It didn't last.
It should be noted that Eileen was originally the only other person Odessa trusted to patch her up if she needed it. Eileen may not have the medical training that she does, but she has a basic understanding and plenty of ability. Odessa's sure she could talk Eileen through any procedure she needed done that she can't do for herself. Odessa holds a great deal of respect for Eileen, which translates mostly to a thick, venomous jealousy.
Upon her reunion with the woman she once knew only as Munin, Odessa began to remember why she had been cautious around her before. Eileen is very much like a wild animal in Odessa's mind, ready to snap, snarl or attack at any moment. Commonalities may bring them together, but as Odessa was quick to discover, they may also drive a wedge between them. Revelations of the love for the same man - or men, as the case may be - rarely results in a smooth initial reaction. The two were harsh with each other, and Odessa hoped that Eileen had gotten it out of her system. Only she hadn't gotten the spite out of her system as well.
Eileen's experiences in Madagascar shaped her in ways that Odessa found increasingly dangerous, and she was not alone in this opinion. She barely had to think twice when she was commissioned to assassinate Munin. Being the object of Sylar's affections was bad enough, but it could be overlooked. But a cancer to the Ferry? Well, eradicating that was certainly a cause Odessa felt comfortable getting behind.
Odessa poisoned the filters of Eileen's cigarettes, confident that it would be a safe way to slowly murder the other woman without risking the lives of anyone else around her. Poisoning, as it turns out, is a fine art. Odessa didn't find it at all difficult to play the concerned friend, being no stranger to deception, and took no small amount of glee from watching Eileen's heath deteriorate. When she miraculously appeared to get better, and then suddenly went blind, and she was no longer smoking, Odessa had a bad feeling her ruse had been discovered. Her client offered to free her from her obligation to fulfil her contract with no consequence, and Odessa considered taking that offer.
Hearing from Sylar's lips that Eileen had won – that she was in fact that woman he loved – sent Odessa over the edge. She planned to ambush Eileen after the raid on the Institute at Sea View Hospital, knowing it to be one of the old Vanguard's designated rendezvous points.
Fighting Eileen taught Odessa a few things. The first being that if you intend to kill someone, don't draw it out. The second being that if you have access to a gun, you shouldn't toss it away across the floor of a dark room where you can't see it anymore if you really have your back against the wall and you fucking need it. The third being that even if you're a doctor and you think it's poetic, a scalpel isn't the best implement of murder. When push comes to shove, you need to be able to stab a bitch to death and a scalpel isn't going to do that when you're flailing around after a blow to the head.
An eye for an eye in the most literal sense, Eileen won the fight and left Odessa blind in her left eye and bleeding out.
To say the two women are now mortal enemies would be the understatement of the last century. Eileen is something more of an arch-nemesis now.
Samson Gray
The Smoke
There are so very few people that can put fear into Odessa. Anyone who is immune to her ability is on that list – though some of them are counted amongst her friends. The man made of smoke is not one of those people. Piecing information together has allowed Odessa to assume that it was Samson Gray attacked her while she was attempting to extract a 5-10 addled Hiro from the hospital. She bears a scar across her forehead still from his attempt to steal her ability.
She's also managed to gather enough information to postulate that Samson Gray murdered her father in 1984, and caused enough trauma to her mother to die in childbirth. Odessa isn't quite sure how to reconcile the fact that one man's actions are responsible for the strange circumstance of her custody and upbringing within the Company. Thrice he has wronged her. Though he terrifies her, Odessa hopes someday to have the chance to confront him about what he's done. He's destroyed more lives than just hers. But not drawing parallels between the father and the son is an exercise in utter futility. By all rights, she should want him dead. And perhaps on some level, she does. But there's just so much she's sure he could teach her. In a strange way, Odessa realises Samson Gray didn't destroy her at all.
He created her.
Sylar
The Gray Knight
One day, Odessa decided to simply take a walk around New York City. She only meant to slip away from the Company for an hour or two, but she quickly discovered New York to be a confusing city to navigate and she realised she had no idea how to get back to the Bronx facility, and in turn sneak back in so her excursion would go unnoticed. While wandering Central Park, she encountered Sylar. Perhaps he agreed to shelter her for purely selfish reasons, and Odessa had no illusions that he meant to take her ability from her, but the chance to study Sylar up close and personal was too irresistible to pass up, despite all the danger.
At first, she was able to convince herself that he was just another subject to observe, but she nearly instantly began to grow fond of the man. He was quick to indulge her insatiable desire to see his every ability, and to show her how he obtained them. Through him, Odessa was able to expand her knowledge and she was all too eager to help him in his pursuit of perfection. Over time, Odessa feels it became more than that. When the situation changed, they banded together and plotted to save the world.
They succeeded, but it tore them apart.
When next Odessa saw Sylar, it was in the flickering monitors of her prison cell at Moab Penitentiary. So close, but still too far away. They wouldn't be united until much later, under less than ideal circumstances for both of them. Despite their disadvantaged situations, Odessa was keen to pick up right where the two left off. Sylar was the closest thing she has to family. In her own way, she's sure that she's in love with Sylar. Despite Eileen's insistence that what Odessa feels isn't love for the man, but love for what he represents to her.
In all actuality, it's likely true. But try convincing Odessa of that.
Sylar was someone she felt she could count on in her moments of crisis. Someone who understood her. She was certain that he felt as strong a connection to her as she did to him. Until he informed her that she couldn't compare to, or compete with Eileen. The rage caused her to snap and attempt to murder Eileen with the intention of being there for him in his grief, sure that once he had time to mourn her loss – at the hands of the Institute, of course – he would see how good Odessa was for him. And they would live happily ever after.
Except that Sylar found the two women in their bloody aftermath, and it's a fairly safe bet that he knows now of Odessa's treachery. So while she may not have intended to, and while she may still love him, Odessa is certain she's made an enemy of Gabriel Gray.
Ethan Holden
The Wolf
Odessa Knutson loved Ethan Holden. Maybe. She isn't sure she knows what love is. Nobody loved her, and she loved no one in return. But she knew that the way Ethan would look at her and promise to protect her stirred something in her she didn't understand and still can't explain. She won't speculate that he loved her, but she still wore the necklace he gave her to hide the ugly scar across her throat given her on her first meeting with Kazimir Volken, up until she lost it in the fire that claimed her home above Old Lucy's. News of Ethan's death was enough to give Odessa the extra push to throw caution to the wind and stop Volken, even at the risk of losing her own life. For a lifelong self-preservationist, this was not a decision made lightly. She may not have gotten her revenge, but her determination paid off.
The lack of Ethan to protect her the way he promised he would prompted Odessa's disappearing act to the Midwest, where she took on a new identity and was ultimately apprehended by the government. It came as no small shock to her when - after the attack on Moab - she woke up in the custody of a mysterious man, wanting to know the location of her dead lover. Finding out through her captor that Ethan was alive almost hurt more than when she was told he had died.
Upon their first reunion, rather than properly confront her, Holden seemed to take the coward's way out, and tranquillise Odessa instead. Time changed them both in painfully obvious ways. Odessa deals with the heartbreak of their separation by replacing it with anger.
Adam Monroe
The Prince
Never has someone shifted categorisations in Odessa's mind so swiftly as this man. From resource, to lover, to enemy, Adam Monroe was the first to give Odessa the notion that she might like to see what the world is really like beyond photographs, film, and descriptions in books. He told her just how sick the world was, and she wondered if she might not be just the doctor to help make it well - all in Adam's vision and in his name. Secretly, she hung on to his ever word - the stories of faraway lands and times long past. He told her of France, whose language she spoke, but shores she had never seen, and of the great astronomers whose works she studied. So enthralled was she by he, that she vowed to herself that she would one day run away with him to travel the world. And she was convinced that he wanted this just as much as she.
The man was not the prince she thought he was, she would discover. When he escaped the Company, he did not come for her. Did not call to her and tell her to leave with him. He fled and he left her behind. And when she made her own escape in an attempt to find him, she was shocked to discover he did not need her help. He hadn't wondered after her or worried for her.
He was no different than any of the others at the Company. They only ever wanted her for one thing. All Company men are the same.
And still, Odessa saw him as a resource. After running into him quite accidentally, he assured her he had wanted to find her after their last meeting. She was quite certain she should not believe him, but he had set her up with a nice place of her own. She didn't want to get too deeply into debt to Adam, but Eileen Ruskin has insisted that Odessa keep close tabs on him. So, that's exactly what she had planned to do. If she had to enjoy a little finery along the way, so be it. But when she interfered in the relationship between Adam and his ward, Kaylee, she was quickly cast aside and told to run, lest she be killed for her betrayal.
Andrew Mitchell
The Tin Man
The vice president. Odessa's seen him in news reels, and photographs. She's met him, too! Okay, so that maybe was just a dream.
So why's he listed under villains anyway?
It may have been just a dream, but that prick still shot her. Fucking heartless –
Eric Doyle
The Abandoner
When Eric Doyle was her patient, Doctor Knutson treated him no differently than any other. That is to say, she treated him rather indifferently, if not somewhat inhumanely. It terrified her when the tables were turned and the directors at Moab decided he would make a good overseer for her. He took a certain sadistic delight in paying forward the treatment she gave him. In a desperate attempt to improve her situation, and driven by a need to escape the prison, Odessa played Doyle. She cooed and batted her lashes, flattered and sweet talked. She indulged his whims and giddily shared hers with him. In the end, he waved goodbye as he fled the prison and left her chained up in her cell.
A chance encounter with her keeper on the streets of New York City left Odessa with broken fingers and a renewed dose of anger and fear. However, she used her knowledge of Eric's presence in the city as a resource, rather than kill him when she had the chance to make him look like the casualty of a traffic accident. She sought his counsel when it came to the point where she saw she was going to have to pick a side between Team Charlie, and Carlisle Dreyfus. If nothing else, he was helpful for commiseration, and the two formed a tenuous sort of truce.
There's a soft spot in Odessa's heart for Eric Doyle, if only because he understands just how truly difficult it is to be a reformed monster. Unfortunately, neither of them have truly reformed. Neither of them is truly sane. He nearly put a bullet in her head for her role in bringing down the Dome. He ruthless approach and choice of allies may not have been the best-advised, but she got the job done. And she got a new scar in her scalp for her efforts, and shifted her status with Eric back to enemies.
When they finally saw each other again, they fell back into their old roles at Moab at first. Eventually, that melted away and the two were able to reconcile. When Doyle watched her die, he knew he didn't want Odessa to hurt anymore. When she was revived, she gave him a clean slate and absolved him of all his horrific sins against her mind and body. At least he went to his death knowing that peace.
Mateo Javier Ruiz
The Partner
Odessa happened upon Mateo Ruiz entirely by chance in her time at the Institute's Arcology. His file was missing so many pieces, he presented the perfect mystery to her. When he knew her, she was instantly fascinated by him, eager to know how he could possibly know her. Who he knew her as.
The truth of it is that in some other life, Mateo was her lover. The revelation came to her as she watched him bleed after he was fatally wounded in the raid on the Ark. Using her ability, she attempted to save his life, in turn giving up some of her own. In the end, it wasn't enough. She didn't have the tools or equipment necessary to keep him alive. But she did at least give him the comfort of her embrace as he died in her arms.
The death of this man, this perfect stranger has shaken Odessa to her very core and causes her to question herself. Who could she have been to deserve this man?
Only time will tell if this revelation is her salvation or her undoing.
Martin Crowley
The Source
In her time with the Company, Martin Crowley was a bit of a pain in the ass at times. But he made her thorough. Paperwork was filled out to the letter to appease the man with his fine-tooth comb. She wasn't excessively fond of him, as she was so rarely truly fond of anyone during her tenure, but she had a healthy respect for the man and his job. He was very good at it. He proved nearly as ruthless as she – or perhaps more so – when he conscripted her services to track down Sylar for his crimes as the Midtown Man. With a shoot-on-sight order, Crowley could have simply shot her where she lay in the snow and taken the feather in his cap for taking her down. But Martin always did have more sense than the average agent. He was never so nearsighted that he couldn't see the bigger picture. And where Odessa could fit into it. Instead, he offered her information about her parents – her real parents – to secure her loyalty.
Much to Odessa's surprise, her attempts to seduce Martin in a move to ensure her safety (hoping he wouldn't simply have her killed when she finished her assignment if they were sleeping together) were entirely unsuccessful. In fact, his reaction to it so startled the young doctor that it prompted her to actually do some research into Martin's background, and she then understood his motives. She dragged her feet on the assignment to kill and return Sylar to Martin in a body bag long enough for times to change within the Company. Losing his position – being demoted – Martin appeared to lose faith in the Company. He acquired the file on Odessa's (supposed) origins and handed it over to her, true to his word. He also admitted what she already knew – that he meant to have her killed once she served her purpose. In return for his favour, Odessa informed him of the Midtown Man's real identity and encouraged him to call on her in the future if he needed anything.
He would call on her again, to warn her of the impending fall of the Company, and that the Institute would be pursuing her, if they hadn't begun to do so already. It would be their last meeting. In the end, she told him he was a good man. And she numbered him among her friends. Martin Crowley, for all his ruthless ambition, was a man of integrity, and he went down fighting for his ideals, and for the lives of others. Knowledge of his death has had a profound effect on her, even if she's kept it to herself. Knowing that Desmond Harper may be responsible for his murder is a source of serious internal conflict.
Of all the men Odessa ever worked with within the Company, she is certain that Martin Crowley was the best.
James Woods
The Inexplicable
Peter's partner. Giver of great ideas, even if they were misconstrued to suit her own purposes. Odessa thoroughly enjoyed reading any and all reports submitted by Agent Woods, if only for the colorful way he phrased things. It was like reading a really good novel. And sometimes, even better than that.
James Woods died on December 6, 2008. Four months later, he was her faithful companion and voice of sanity while trapped in the clutches of a somehow prophetic opium-induced dream. In life, Woods thought Odessa was nuttier than a fruitcake, and she knows this. But she was fond of him. In death, such as things are, he seemed fond of her, too. At least he seemed to like her well enough. When tasked with the assignment to write in a journal as part of her therapy, Odessa instead chose to write letters to Woods, finding herself somewhat incapable of properly writing in a journal format without keeping things too clinical. She misses Woods more than she will ever admit to another living person (in the waking world). His particular brand of entertainment is not something anyone has ever been able to duplicate.
Wu-Long Zhang
The Shadow
Wu-Long was given the position of Odessa's keeper and while he certainly wasn't her first choice for the role, he certainly wasn't the worst choice. His ability intrigued her, and he amazed her by the way he could size a person up. The intrigue is what kept her from running the other way, as her instincts bade her to do. The mysterious man had openly told the doctor that he thought her very beautiful, and that initially scared her more than what he could do with his powers.
In the strange new world outside of the Company's walls, Wu-Long was Odessa's guide and her keeper. Against the onslaught of emotions and new experience, he stood with her. In the name of cultivating new, worldly experiences, she shared her first kiss with Wu-Long. It terrified her at first. Stirred things within her that she didn't understand. She came to interpret it as love, though she had similar feelings for his counterpart, Ethan Holden.
Frightened by what Kazimir Volken meant to do with her assistance, Odessa asked Wu-Long to run away with her. He refused. Broke her heart. When he discovered she'd been retrieved, and made to finish The Work, he went to find her. He confronted and was confronted by Volken, struggling against the compulsions that come from being a part of Sylar. She found the aftermath outside of her makeshift lab. Coupled with news of the supposed death of Ethan Holden, it spurred her to fight back against Volken, without regard for her own safety.
Wu-Long Zhang's death haunts Odessa still. While she struggled with her addictions, she would talk to the shadows as though he would simply form from them and take her in his arms to assure her that he was watching, and everything would be all right. She speaks fondly of him, and holds all other potential male suitors to the impossibly high standard he set by dying before she could discover any huge incompatibilities.
Kurt Campbell
The Guardian
After finding herself homeless yet again, Odessa was found in an abandoned subway station in Midtown by Kurt Campbell. The man insisted she have breakfast and follow him home, where he would give her a roof over her head. She originally lied to him, giving her name as Brooke rather than her own, and she could never bear to truly explain exactly who she used to be or the wrong she'd done, and she was sure she could never will tell him the whole truth. Lying about or concealing her past was acceptable to her, and she finally felt she could be honest about her motives. Kurt proved himself to be kind and patient with Odessa. Because of him, she knows how to operate laundry machines, and even cook more than just microwave food. He even taught her to ride a bike. Odessa's returned Kurt's kindness the only way she knew how - with physical affection. It eventually grew into love, or something very much like it.
But the lies and half-truths took their toll. She panicked. Odessa took their kitten and left in the night, while they were still a happy couple, so she would never risk him discovering the truth about her past, and losing him. Losing him on her terms was the only acceptable loss. Regardless, leaving Kurt is a decision Odessa regrets, and she wishes she'd been less cowardly, and more honest with him.
Soundtrack, by Theme
Dessa, "Seamstress"
I kept an angel
In a box beneath my bed
Little beast had broke her jaw
And I tried to fix her head
They said I had to put her back
That I had to put her back exactly where I found her
But I know, I saw
That she was doing good until the cat got her
I came to write a letter
But my pen was full of hymns
I came to drown a sorrow
It seems they've learned to swim
Mouth full of pins, heart pumping gasoline,
It's late, I'm still at the sewing machine
Stiching up strays fifteen years,
But this one's mean
I fixed you up
When they said you were past repair
And I stitched you up
I thread a needle with my hair
And I fixed you up
When you were still a common sparrow
But look who's on the shoulder now
When the road goes narrow
I kept an angel
In a box beneath my bed
Little bitch had broke her jaw
And I tried to fix her head
They said I had to put her back
That I had to put her back exactly where I found her
But I know, I saw
That she was doing good until the cat got her
Well I'm putting you
Out of my misery,
We ain't got much, but
We've got history
It was a mercy kill
No
It was a suicide
No
It was an accident
No
Well, at least I tried
With soft dugs and a seam ripper
Tough love and tape measure
Stitching up boys is different that way
You fix a bird, you buy a cage
You fix a man and
You fix a man and
And he flies away
When I ran out of thread I couldn't let go
But that's not sewing that's
That's just poking holes
And it's a strange breed
A different kind of creature looks for love
Through the eye of a needle
But the creed of the seamstress is
That you're pretty in pieces
I kept an angel
In a box beneath my bed
Little beast had broke her jaw
And I tried to fix her head
They said I had to put her back
That I had to put her back exactly where I found her
But I know, I saw
That she was doing good until the cat got her
Take a seat
And let me get a look at your face
Busted, back's been broke for days
Not much, little something for the pain
Don't fuss or I'll never get a seam to lay straight
I keep it clean as I can with just
Just the machine and a mattress plus
I never did need for a pattern
Just some good restraints and my bedside manner
When I ran out of thread I couldn't let go
But that's not sewing that's
That's just poking holes
When I ran out of thread I couldn't let go
But that's not sewing that's
That's just poking holes
Marc Wulf, "Eclipse"
Follow me and get no peace
And I'll say don't you stray to close to me
It's toxic careful round me as you breathe
Follow me and get no peace
I warned
And you swore
You could handle
My crazy
(Told you once, can't tell you twice)
Stay where you stand
Don't come nearer
You search for home
Just get cold stone
Stay where you stand
Don't come nearer
I'm not your home
More like stone cold
I'm your eclipse
Made a promise we can't keep
I lied because it tastes so sweet
It's logic, hold your hands where I can see
Made a promise we can't keep
I warned
And you swore
You could handle
My crazy
(Told you once, can't tell you twice)
Stay where you stand
Don't come nearer
You search for home
Just get cold stone
Stay where you stand
Don't come nearer
I'm not your home
More like stone cold
I'm your eclipse
Do you want my heart?
Well I want to feel the stars
It's simply not happening
These cards won't fall your way
Can I take apart
Your silly picture of us
You just can't trust
Stay where you stand
Don't come nearer
You search for home
Just get cold stone
Stay where you stand
Don't come nearer
I'm not your home
More like stone cold
I'm your eclipse
Nina Simone, "Pirate Jenny"
You people can watch while I'm scrubbing these floors
And I'm scrubbin' the floors while you're gawking
Maybe once ya tip me and it makes ya feel swell
In this crummy Southern town
In this crummy old hotel
But you'll never guess to who you're talkin'.
No. You couldn't ever guess to who you're talkin'.
Then one night there's a scream in the night
And you'll wonder who could that have been
And you see me kinda grinnin' while I'm scrubbin'
And you say, "What's she got to grin?"
I'll tell you.
There's a ship
The Black Freighter
With a skull on its masthead
Will be coming in
You gentlemen can say, "Hey gal, finish them floors!
Get upstairs! What's wrong with you! Earn your keep here!
You toss me your tips
And look out to the ships
But I'm counting your heads
As I'm making the beds
Cuz there's nobody gonna sleep here,
Tonight, nobodys gonna sleep here, honey
Nobody
Nobody!
Then one night there's a scream in the night
And you say, "Who's that kicking up a row?"
And ya see me kinda starin' out the winda
And you say, "What's she got to stare at now?"
I'll tell ya.
There's a ship
The Black Freighter
Turns around in the harbor
Shootin' guns from her bow
Now
You gentlemen can wipe off that smile off your face
Cause every building in town is a flat one
This whole frickin' place will be down to the ground
Only this cheap hotel standing up safe and sound
And you yell, "Why do they spare that one?"
Yes.
That's what you say.
"Why do they spare that one?"
All the night through, through the noise and to-do
You wonder who is that person that lives up there?
And you see me stepping out in the morning
Looking nice with a ribbon in my hair
And the ship
The Black Freighter
Runs a flag up its masthead
And a cheer rings the air
By noontime the dock
Is a-swarmin' with men
Comin' out from the ghostly freighter
They move in the shadows
Where no one can see
And they're chainin' up people
And they're bringin' em to me
Askin' me,
"Kill them NOW, or LATER?"
Askin' ME!
"Kill them now, or later?"
Noon by the clock
And so still at the dock
You can hear a foghorn miles away
And in that quiet of death
I'll say, "Right now.
Right now!"
Then they pile up the bodies
And I'll say,
"That'll learn ya!"
And the ship
The Black Freighter
Disappears out to sea
And
On
It
Is
Me
Digital Daggers, "The Devil Within"
I will keep quiet
You won't even know I'm here
You won't suspect a thing
You won't see me in the mirror
But I crept into your heart
You can't make me disappear
Til I make you
I made myself at home
In the cobwebs and the lies
I'm learning all your tricks
I can hurt you from inside
I made myself a promise
You would never see me cry
Til I make you
You'll never know what hit you
Won't see me closing in
I'm gonna make you suffer
This hell you put me in
I'm underneath your skin
The devil within
You'll never know what hit you
I will be here
When you think you're all alone
Seeping through the cracks
I'm the poison in your bones
My love is your disease
I won't let it set you free
Til I break you
You'll never know what hit you
Won't see me closing in
I'm gonna make you suffer
This hell you put me in
I'm underneath your skin
The devil within
You'll never know what hit you
I tried to be the lover to your nightmare
Look what you made of me
Now I'm a heavy burden that you can't bear
Look what you made of me
Look what you made of me
I'll make you see
You'll never know what hit you
Won't see me closing in
I'm gonna make you suffer
This hell you put me in
I'm underneath your skin
The devil within
You'll never know what hit you
The devil within
You'll never know what hit you
Imelda May, "Big Bad Handsome Man"
The man is tall bad, mean and good looking,
And he’s got me in his eye
When he looks at me, I go weak at the knees
Got me going like no other guy
Cause he’s my big bad handsome man, yeah
He’s got me in the palm of his hand
He’s the devil divine, I’m so glad that he’s mine
Cause he’s my big bad handsome man, ohh
The music he plays, the way he moves me and sways
Rocks me to the core
When he sings in my ear
He makes me shiver and leer
Leaves me wanting more and more
Cause he’s my big bad handsome man, yeah
He’s got me in the palm of his hand
He’s the devil divine, I’m so glad that he’s mine
Cause he’s my big bad handsome man, ohh
With his rugged good looks, yea he’s got me hooked
Got me where he wants me to be
With his arms so wide, he pulls me in by his side
He’s the kind of guy that does it for me
Cause he’s my big bad handsome man, yeah
He’s got me in the palm of his hand
He’s the devil divine, I’m so glad that he’s mine
Cause he’s my big bad handsome man, ohh
My big bad handsome man, yeah
He’s got me in the palm of his hand
He’s the devil divine, I’m so glad that he’s mine
Cause he’s my big bad I’m so glad that he’s my handsome man
The Real Tuesday Weld, "Me and Mr Wolf"
Hey little girl, you look so nice
In the pretty red dress with those pretty black eyes
Hello Mr Wolf, oh what a surprise
To find you here so deep in the night
My dear little girl, what's the rush?
How about supper, just the two of us?
Oh Mr Wolf, you want me to stay
But I fear we'll regret it one day
I have the thing you love
But the need in me is way too much
If I open wide
One of us may get lost inside
Me or you, one of us is going to
Need
To
Die
My dear little girl, just a bite
And you will be consumed with delight
Oh Mr Wolf, my hunger's real
But they say there's more to love than a meal
They're old and uptight, what do they know?
I'm all appetite, you'll help me grow
Oh my love, I want you too
But my desire may prove your doom
You have the thing I love
But the need in me is way too much
If I open wide
One of us may get lost inside
Me or you, one of us is going to
Need
To
Die
If - I - taste - you - will - we - know
If - love - kills - or - makes - you - whole
Tears - you - open - takes - you - home
You have the thing I love
But the fear in me is way too much
If I open wide
One of us may get lost inside
Me or you, one of us is going to
Need
To
Die
I have the thing
The thing
You love…
Die
Love
Die
Soundtrack, by Relationship
Evanescence, "Imperfection"
The more you try to fight it
The more you try to hide it
The more infected, rejected, you feel alone inside it
You know you can't deny it
The world's a little more fucked up everyday
I'm gonna save you from it
Together we'll outrun it
Just don't give into the fear
So many things I would've told you
If I knew that I was never gonna see you again
I wanna lift you up into the light that you deserve
I wanna take your pain into myself so you won't hurt
Don't you dare surrender
Don't leave me here without you
Cause I could never
Replace your perfect imperfection
The way you look us over
Your counterfeit composure
Pushing again and again and sinking lower and lower
The world is on our shoulders
Do you really know the weight of the words you say?
You want a little of it
You just can't let go of it
You've got an ego to feed
Too late to rise above it
Don't look now but the little girl's got a grenade
I'm gonna lift you up into the light that you deserve
I'm gonna take you down to the real world so you can watch it burn
Don't you dare surrender
Don't leave me here without you
Cause I could never
Replace your perfect imperfection
We stand undefined
Can't be drawn with a straight line
This will not be our ending
We are alive, we are alive
Don't you dare surrender
Don't leave me here without you
Cause I could never
Replace your perfect imperfection
Don't you dare surrender
I'm still right beside you
And I could never
Replace your perfect imperfection
Barenaked Ladies, "If I Had $1,000,000"
If I had a million dollars
(If I had a million dollars)
Well, I’d buy you a house
(I would buy you a house)
And if I had a million dollars
(If I had a million dollars)
I’d buy you furniture for your house
(Maybe a nice chesterfield or an ottoman)
And if I had a million dollars
(If I had a million dollars)
Well, I’d buy you a K-Car
(A nice reliant automobile)
And if I had a million dollars, I’d buy your love
If I had a million dollars
(I’d build a tree-fort in our yard)
If I had a million dollars
(You could help it wouldn’t be that hard)
If I had a million dollars
(Maybe we could put a little tiny fridge
In there somewhere)
We could just go up there and hang out
(Like open the fridge and stuff
And there’d all be foods laid out for us
Like little pre-wrapped sausages and things
They have pre-wrapped sausages
But they don’t have pre-wrapped bacon)
Well, can you blame them?
(Yeah!)
If I had a million dollars
(If I had a million dollars)
Well, I’d buy you a fur a coat
(But not a real fur coat, that’s cruel)
And if I had a million dollars
(If I had a million dollars)
Well, I’d buy you an exotic pet
(Yep, like a llama or an emu)
And if I had a million dollars
(If I had a million dollars)
Well, I’d buy you John Merrick’s remains
(Ooh all them crazy elephant bones)
And if I had a million dollars I’d buy your love
If I had a million dollars
(We wouldn’t have to walk to the store)
If I had a million dollars
(We’d take a Limousine ’cause it costs more)
If I had a million dollars
(We wouldn’t have to eat Kraft dinner)
But we would eat Kraft dinner
(Of course we would, we’d just eat more)
And buy really expensive ketchups with it
(That’s right, all the fanciest - Dijon ketchups)
If I had a million dollars
(If I had a million dollars)
Well, I’d buy you a green dress
(But not a real green dress, that’s cruel)
And if I had a million dollars
(If I had a million dollars)
Well, I’d buy you some art
(A Picasso or a Garfunkel)
If I had a million dollars
(If I had a million dollars)
Well, I’d buy you a monkey
(Haven’t you always wanted a monkey?)
If I had a million dollars, I’d buy your love
If I had a million dollars
(If I had a million dollars)
If I had a million dollars
(If I had a million dollars)
If I had a million dollars
I'd be rich
Lights Fade Low, "Touch"
No one will touch you
No one will touch you
I'd rip their heads off if they tried
No one will take you
No one will break you
I'll keep you whole until I die
I can feel you inside
Underneath my skin
Feel you take me from within
And so I surrender
Bound to you in sin
Feel my outsides turning in
No one will push you
No one will push you
I'll push back hard with all my might
No one will turn you
No one will burn you
I'll stand before you in the light
No one will stain you
No one will pain you
I'll keep you clean until my end
No one will hurt you
The way that I hurt you
Nothing will feel the same again
I can feel you inside
Underneath my skin
Feel you take me from within
I can feel you breathing
Take away my wind
Feel my outsides turning in
And the dawn is breaking over my blue mind
But I don't know what you'll find
And the poison's taking hold of me this time
And the feeling is sublime
I can feel you inside
Underneath my skin
Feel you take me from within
And so I surrender
Bound to you sin
Feel my outsides turning in
Florence + The Machine, "Girl With One Eye"
She told me not to step on the cracks
I told her not to fuss and relax
Pretty little face stopped me in my tracks
But now she sleeps with one eye open
That's the price she'll pay
I took a knife and cut out her eye
I took it home and watched it wither and die
Well, she's lucky that I didn't slip her a smile
That's why she sleeps with one eye open
That's the price she'll pay
I said, hey, girl with one eye
Get your filthy fingers out of my pie
I said, hey, girl with one eye
I'll cut your little heart out 'cause you made me cry
I slipped my hand under her skirt
I said don't worry, it's not gonna hurt
Oh, my reputation's kinda clouded with dirt
That's why you sleep with one eye open
But that's the price you pay
I said, hey, girl with one eye
Get your filthy fingers out of my pie
I said, hey, girl with one eye
I'll cut your little heart out 'cause you made me cry
You made me cry
You made me cry
You made me cry
I said, hey, girl with one eye
Get your filthy fingers out of my pie
I said, girl with one eye
Get your filthy fingers out my pie
I said, hey, girl with one eye
Get your filthy fingers out of my pie
I said, hey, girl with one eye
I'll cut your little heart out 'cause you made me cry
Cake Bake Betty, "The Spine Song"
And you're down
For the count
You are dancing with men, going 'round and around
And you're scared
And you're sure
That your spine will dissolve, you will fall to the floor
You will take
What you need
And the headaches will come, but at least you can breathe
There's the smoke
Fills your lungs
We will wait for the day, we'll rejoice when it comes
On your birthday
You woke up
The snow was on the ground
You opened books and peeked inside
They kissed you on your crown
With pins in
Your fingers
You held yourself up high
The picture peeled the person
They let themselves divide
You arrive
At the place
It is not what you want but it is what you chase
So you don't
Have to hold
All of the candles that burn on their own
You will steal
All the smells
That cut through your nose and excite all your cells
When it's time
To escape
You realize you've waited until it's too late
But your birthday
Inflated
The bones with which you creak
They stole your shoes and brought you to
The caverns of their teeth
You pleaded
"Oh, kind sir
Please let me say goodbye."
Your soul ripped from your stomach
You gave an awful cry
A cry
A cry
A cry
And when I have died
Will you use my spine
To swing from tree to tree in search of places pleasing to the eye?
And when I have died
Will you use my spine
To swing from tree to tree in search of places pleasing to the eye?
And when I have died
Will you use my spine
To swing from tree to tree in search of places pleasing to the eye, and…
I said
I'm sorry, dear
I said
I'm sorry, dear
But you don't listen
No, you don't listen
You silly little girl
Marc Wulf, "Move On My Own"
I look in the mirror
The shadows are clearer
My eyes are cold
And I have no real home
My mind through the ceiling
I'm chasing a feeling
It's hard to see
Where life will lead
If I move on
Move on my own
With your eyes on me
Hand me what I seek
And we'll move on
Move on our own
I heard you were calling
My back's to the wall and
I'm reaching out
'Cause you know the way home
I'm usually a loner
With you I grow older
My memories bloom
Then I'm running for home
It's hard to see
Where life will lead
If I move on
Move on my own
With your eyes on me
Hand me what I seek
And we'll move on
Move on our own
TheNightLab, "Not Changing Pop, Seeking"
I'm not changing pops, I'm seeking
And I hear what your preaching
But this drowsy inanition can't stay
I am screaming out this seance
While a spectral love is playing with the lights
It just ain't right
I won't lie to you, I won't lie
If the water comes we won't survive
And the rain is gonna come
Shine on you sinking sun
Cause the waning time it gets me low
Look on you wicked world
I will wait my turn but it goes slow
I won't lie to you, I won't lie
If the water comes we won't survive
And the rain is gonna come
But she was standing there
She was standing there
I tore another picture from the wall
Cause I don't want them anymore
I swam these waters for so long
I never thought I'd reach the shore
When I came out you were standing smiling
Radiant through your own trauma
You took my hand and you hold it still
Can you hear the laugh of lovers
She was standing there
She's still standing there
So shine on you sinking sun
Cause the waning time it gets me low
Look on you wicked world
I will wait my turn but it goes slow
Evanescence, "Never Go Back"
Everything is so dark
And I know there's something wrong but I can't turn the light on
In that split second change when you knew we couldn't hold on
I realized I lived to love you
Save yourself, don't look back
Tearing us apart until it's all gone
The only world I've ever known sleeps beneath the waves
But I remember
I won't give up on you
I can feel you in my heart, just show me the way
I don't belong here
Alone
I can still see your face
Where it's burned into my mind I die every time
I close my eyes, you're always there
Save yourself, don't look back
Tearing us apart until it's all gone
The only world I've ever known sleeps beneath the waves
But I'm the one who's drowning without your love
I am lost and I can never go back home
All across the ocean
We are calling, calling
Are you there?
Nothing left for me till I find you
Because it's all gone
The only world I've ever known sleeps beneath the waves
But I'm the one who's drowning without your love
I am lost and I can never go back
I can never go back home
Ludo, "The Horror of Our Love"
I'm a killer, cold and wrathful
Silent sleeper, I've been inside your bedroom
I've murdered half the town
left you love notes on their headstones
I'll fill the graveyards until I have you.
Moonlight walking, I smell your softness
carnivorous and lusting to track you down among the pines.
I want you stuffed into my mouth
hold you down and tear you open, live inside you -
love, I'd never hurt you.
But I'll grind against your bones until our marrows mix
I will eat you slowly…
Oh, the horror of our love
never so much blood pulled through my veins.
Oh, the horror of our love… never so much blood
I wake in terror, blackbirds screaming
Dark cathedrals spilling midnight on their altars
I'm your servant, my immortal
pale and perfect, such unholy heaving -
the statues close their eyes, the room is changing
break my skin and drain me.
Ancient language, speak through fingers
the awful edges where you end and I begin
inside your mouth I cannot see -
there's catastrophe in everything I'm touching
As I sweat and crush you.
And I hold your beating chambers until they beat no more
you die like angels sing…
Oh, the horror of our love
never so much blood pulled through my veins.
Oh, the horror of our love… never so much blood
You're a ghost love, nightgown flowing
your body blue and walking along the continental shelf
you are a dream among the sharks
beautiful and terrifying, lit and restless
we dance in dark suspension.
And you bury me in the ocean floor beneath you
where they'll never hear us scream…
Oh, the horror of our love
never so much blood pulled through my veins.
Oh, the horror of our love… never so much blood
Ella Fence, "Hunter"
I am only human but I wanna break that spell
One that tricks me, the one for which I fell
I have been too careful, so I'm blindly wandering
But it's pulling on my backbone and toying with me
Because I've got a taste on the back of my neck
And I waste, I waste, I waste it on your lips
And then I hide underneath my pride and you'll wonder
Because I'm a wolf, I'm a wolf
And you're my…
I'm told that to be human, that I must stand still
You can try your hardest because I never will
She had all the answers but where's she off to now?
You were high on her skin so let me help you down
Because I've got a taste on the back of my neck
And I waste, I waste, I waste it on your lips
And then I'll hide underneath my pride
And you will wonder
Because I'm a wolf, I'm a wolf
And you're my…
And then I'll hide underneath my pride
And you will wonder
'Cause I'm a wolf, I'm wolf
And you're my hunter
You're my hunter
You're my hunter
Soundtrack, by Chapter
- The Calm Before
- The Storm
- This is the Story of How I Died
- The Brief Life of Brooke Lynwood
- Odessa's Adventures in the Land of Oz
- Twelve Steps
- Among the Wolves
- The Fine Art of Poisoning
- Hunted Gets Captured by the Game
- Divided We Fall
- Crossroads
- Five Years Gone
Evanescence, "Exodus"
My black backpack's stuffed with broken dreams
Twenty bucks should get me through the week
Never said a word of discontentment
Fought it a thousand times but now
I'm leaving home
Here in the shadows
I'm safe
I'm free
I've nowhere else to go but
I cannot stay where I don't belong
Two months pass by and it's getting cold
But I know I'm not lost
I'm just alone
But I won't cry I won't give up
I can't go back now
Waking up is knowing who you really are
Here in the shadows
I'm safe
I'm free
I've nowhere else to go but
I cannot stay where I don't belong
In the shadows
I'm safe
I'm free
I've nowhere else to but
I cannot stay here, oh
Show me the shadow where true meaning lies
So much more dismay in empty eyes
The Dead Weather, "60 Feet Tall"
You're so cruel and shameless
But I can't leave you be
You're so cold and dangerous
I can't leave you be
You got the kind of loving
I need constantly
Hooked up to my motor
All day long
We go down to Texas
Up to Montreal
Two eyes none the wiser
In the deep
When the water gets hotter
Both hands in the deep
You got my attention
You got it all
I can take the trouble
I'm 60 feet tall
I know it ain't easy
I must tap your evil well
Cos boy, do you come roaring
Like a bat out of hell
You drive me so reckless
You'll kill us all
I can take the trouble
I'll take you on
I can take the trouble
I'm 60 feet tall
You're so cruel and shameless
But I can't leave you be
You're so cold and dangerous
I can't leave you be
You got the kind of loving
I need constantly
I can take the trouble
Cos I'm 60 feet
Tall
Shivaree, "Goodnight Moon"
There's nail in the door and there's glass on the lawn
Tacks on the floor and the TV's on
And I always sleep with my guns when you're gone
There's a blade by the bed and a phone in my hand
A dog on the floor and some cash on the nightstand
When I'm all alone the dreamin' stops and I just keep sayin'
What should I do? I'm just a little baby
What if the lights go out? And maybe
And then the wind just starts to moan
Outside my door
He's followed me home now
Goodnight Moon
I want the sun, if it's not here soon I might be done
No, it won't be too soon till I say,
Goodnight Moon
There's a shark in the pool and a witch in the tree
A crazy old neighbour, and he's been watchin' me
And there's footsteps loud and strong comin' down the hall
Something's under the bed, now it's out in the hedge
There's a big, black crow sittin' on my window ledge
And I hear something scratching through the wall
Oh, what should I do? I'm just a little baby
What if the lights go out? And maybe
I just hate to be all alone
Outside the door, it followed me home now
Goodnight Moon
I want the sun
If it's not here soon I might be done
No, it won't be too soon till I say,
Goodnight Moon
Well you're up so high
How can you save me
When the dark comes here tonight
To take me up my front walk
And into the bed
Where he kisses my face
And eats my head
What should I do? I'm just a little baby
What if the lights go out? and maybe
And then the wind just starts to moan
Outside my door
It followed me home now
Goodnight Moon
I want the sun
If it's not here soon, I might be done
No, it won't be too soon till I say
Goodnight Moon
No, it won't be too soon till I say
Goodnight Moon
Fiona Apple, "Never is a Promise"
You'll never see the courage I know
Its colours' richness won't appear within your view
I'll never glow the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgements made on you
But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch, I see from greater heights
I understand what I am still too proud to mention
To you
You'll say you understand, but you don't understand
You'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye
But never is a promise, and you can't afford to lie
You'll never touch these things that I hold
The skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
You'll never feel the heat of this soul
My fever burns me deeper than I've ever shown
To you
You'll say, don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems
You'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a promise and you can't afford to lie
You'll never live the life that I live
I'll never live the life that wakes me in the night
You'll never hear the message I give
You'll say it looks as though I might give up this fight
But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch, I see from greater heights
I realize what I am now too smart to mention
To you
You'll say you understand, you'll never understand
I'll say I'll never wake up knowing how or why
I don't know what to believe in
You dont know who I am
You'll say I need appeasing when I start to cry
But never is a promise and I'll never need a lie
Muse, "Hoodoo"
Come into my life
Regress into a dream
We will hide
And build a new reality
Draw another picture
Of the life you could have had
Follow your instincts
And choose the other path
You should never be afraid
You're protected from trouble and pain
Why, why is this a crisis in your eyes again
Come to be
How did it come to be
Tied to a railroad
No love to set us free
Watch our souls fade away
And our bodies crumbling
Don't be afraid
I will take the blow for you
And I've had recurring nightmares
That I was loved for who I am
And missed the opportunity
To be a better man
Sixpence None the Richer, "The Waiting Room"
Fight till your fists bleed, baby
Beat the fate walls enclosing you, maybe
God will unlock the cage of learning for you, for you
Fight till your fists bleed, baby
Kick and scream at the wicked things, maybe
God will unlock the door you need to walk through
When will it happen, baby?
It could be never, then maybe
It could be far
Here we are in the waiting room of the world
We will wait until you call our name out loud
In the waiting room of the world
We will wait until you call our name out loud
And the battle will never end well
You can't marry your Heaven to our Hell
We prolific and you the devourer need to see
Some things are sacred, baby
Why have you gone and trampled them lately?
I guess it's all just a part of your way
You should be ashamed
I'm getting tired of fighting
I guess I should ask,
Do I go quietly down?
Do I kick, do I scream when I'm bound?
Are you coming to open the door?
Are you near? Are you near?
Is it far?
Here we are in the waiting room of the world
We will wait until you call our name out loud
In the waiting room of the world
We will wait until you call our name out loud
Jimi Hendrix, "All Along the Watchtower"
There must be some kind of way outta here
Said the joker to the thief
There's too much confusion
I can't get no relief
Business men, they drink my wine
Plowman dig my earth
None were level on the mind
Nobody up at his word
Hey, hey
No reason to get excited
The thief he kindly spoke
There are many here among us
Who feel that life is but a joke
But, uh, but you and I, we've been through that
And this is not our fate
So let us stop talkin' falsely now
The hour's getting late, hey
All along the watchtower
Princes kept the view
While all the women came and went
Barefoot servants, too
Outside in the cold distance
A wildcat did growl
Two riders were approaching
And the wind began to howl
Panic! At the Disco, "I Have Friends in Holy Spaces"
You remind me of a former love
That I once knew
And you carry a little piece with you
We were holdin' hands
Walkin' through the middle of the street
It's fine with me
I'm just taking in the scenery
You remind me of a few of my famous friends
Well that all depends what you qualify as friends
You remind me of a few of my famous friends
Well that all depends what you qualify as friends
Take a chance
Take your shoes off
Dance in the rain
I was splashin' around
And the news spread all over town
I'm not complainin' that it's rainin'
I'm just sayin' that I'd like it a lot
More than you'd think
If the sun would come out and sing with me
You remind me of a few of my famous friends
Well that all depends what you qualify as friends
You remind me of a few of my famous friends
Well that all depends
What you qualify as friends
Saint Vincent, "Marrow"
Muscle connects to the bone
And bone to the ire and the marrow
I wish I had a gentle mind and a spine made up of iron
Mouth connects to the teeth
And teeth to the loves and curses
Honey can you reach the spot that need oilin' and fixin'?
H-E-L-P
Help me, help me
H-E-L-P
Help me, help me
Muscle connects to the bone
And bone to the ire and the marrow
So I pretend there aren't ten strings tied to all ten of my fingers
H-E-L-P
Help me, help me
If you want we could go somewhere else
H-E-L-P, H-E-L-P
H-E-L-P, H-E-L-P
Ebba Forsberg, "Lost Count"
Been walked out upon
And been the one walking out
On the ones
I love
Made my life a mess
Can't put the blame on no one but myself
Lost hope and lost faith so many times I lost count
Been stumbling
Grouping
Caught
But found a way out of
Each and every trap
And somehow, and so far
Made my life a mess
Can't put the blame on no one but myself
Lost hope and lost faith
So many times I lost count
I lost count
Lost hope and lost faith
So many times I lost count
Been walked out upon
And been the one walking
Out
Lou Reed, "Perfect Day"
Just a perfect day
Drink sangria in the park
And then, later, when it gets dark
We go home
Just a perfect day
Feed animals in the zoo
Then, later, a movie, too
And then home
Oh, it's such a perfect
I'm glad I spent it with you
Oh, such a perfect day
You just keep me hangin' on
You just keep me hangin' on
Just a perfect day
Problems all left alone
Weekenders on our own
It's such fun
You made me forget myself
I thought I was someone else
Someone good
Oh, it's such a perfect day
I'm glad I spent it with you
Oh, such a perfect day
You just keep me hangin' on
You just keep me hangin' on
You're going to reap just what you sow…
Foo Fighters, "The Pretender"
Keep you in the dark
You know they all pretend
Keep you in the dark
And so it all began
Send in your skeletons
Sing as their bones go marching in… again
The need you buried deep
The secrets that you keep are at the ready
Are you ready?
I'm finished making sense
Done pleading ignorance
That whole defense
Spinning infinity, but
The wheel is spinning me
It's never ending, never ending
Same old story
What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one.
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?
In time or so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale… oh, well
The page is out of print
We are not permanent
We're temporary, temporary
Same old story
What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one.
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?
I'm the voice inside your head
You refuse to hear
I'm the face that you have to face
Mirrored in your stare
I'm what's left, I'm what's right
I'm the enemy
I'm the hand that will take you down
Bring you to your knees
So who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Keep you in the dark
You know they all pretend
What if I say I'm not like the others?
(Keep you in the dark)
What if I say I'm not just another one.
(You know they all… pretend)
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?
So who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Queens of the Stone Age, "3's & 7's"
Lie, lie to my face,
Tell me it ain't no thing,
That's what I wanna hear
Take your lie to the grave,
That's what an old friend told me,
Look at what it did for him.
The truth hurts so bad, wouldn't you say?
So why tell it?
If ignorance is bliss,
Then I'm in heaven now.
Run, you'll never escape,
You see you go nowhere (based on who you appear),
Broke, laid to waste,
Turn into sweet nothings,
Kiss you goodbye.
The truth hurts so bad, wouldn't you say?
So why tell it?
If ignorance is bliss,
Then I'm in heaven now.
I keep goin' over and over again,
The never ending places I never been
No one is catching on or calling my bluff,
The devil made me, only we never met,
What'd you do? Say it with a smile boy,
Makin' us all forget
The truth always had three sides, boy
Mine, yours, and how it went
The truth's always been a lie, boy
And I'm never tellin' it
Makin' you all forget
Makin' us all forget
Swear to God
Jill Tracy, "The Fine Art of Poisoning"
It's quite an elaborate scheme
The fine art of poisoning
The dose to comatose
Slyly administered
Not for the frail of heart
The vengeful must play their part
A friend to the bitter end
Or so they say
Nice and slow
Misfortune will flow
Peril in the nursery
It seems a tainted pastry
One bite, what a dreadful fright!
She was such a delicate little dish
A pleasant parlour gathering
Quicksilver concealed in a ruby ring
Two lumps? Or three?
I have always adored bergamot tea
Nice and slow
Misfortune will flow
But who will know?
Mika, "Happy Ending"
This is the way you left me, I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No happy ending
This is the way that we love, like it's forever
Then live the rest of our life, but not together
Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day
This is the way you left me, I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory,
No happy ending
This is the way that we love, like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life, but not together
2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day
This is the way you left me, I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory,
No happy ending
This is the way that we love, like it's forever
Then live the rest of our life, but not together
A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day
This is the way you left me, I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory,
No happy ending
This is the way that we love, like it's forever
To live the rest of our life, but not together
Darling Violetta, "Spoiled and Rotten"
I know you feel it
This is a serious chemistry
You don't have to believe it
But the truth will set you free
You're flashing like white neon
in my mind and it's alright
I must be spoiled and rotten
cause no one else will ever do
Don't you forget I get what I want
All I want is you
Bring your strawberry car
Come to the cabaret in my mind
The camera's rolling
The water feels fine
You know I'm half crazy for you
and there's nothing you can do
I must be spoiled and rotten
cause no one else will ever do
Don't you forget I get what I want
All I want is you
Red rubies daffodils
Gentle breezes and windowsills
Starlight silver radiation
inside my mental television
An acid metamorphosis
An altered state of consciousness
Candy mansions of the soul
No compromises turn to gold
I must be spoiled and rotten
cause no one else will ever do
Don't you forget I get what I want
All I want is you
Thenewno2, "Yomp"
I don't deny what I'm seeing
You vilify all our kind
You criticise people's weakness
When all the time it's just your lies
And I never fear the worst
I will be there, just say the word
Hide your eyes, turn away now
Roll on by without a word
Read the signs, it's hard to see how
To have it all if you want your soul
Just wake from night, you're going nowhere,
You're out of line, you know it ain't right
And I never fear the worst
I will be there just say the word
Well it took you to knock on my soul
Could it be the time to let go?
You're no match
For the bigger man
If you busted them
They'd just cover it
You're no match
For what's happenin'
Step by step
You can feel it
You're no match
For all that you've seen
Everywhere
Tantalizing
But no matter what they say,
You can make it all right
You can do it alone now
Do it your way
Yeah
Muse, "Butterflies and Hurricanes"
Change everything you are
And everything you were
Your number has been called
Fights and battles have begun
Revenge will surely come
Your hard times are ahead
Best,
You've got to be the best
You've got to change the world
And use this chance to be heard
Your time is now
Change everything you are
And everything you were
Your number has been called
Fights and battles have begun
Revenge will surely come
Your hard times are ahead
Best,
You've got to be the best
You've got to change the world
And use this chance to be heard
Your time is now
Don't let yourself down
Don't let yourself go
Your last chance has arrived
Best,
You've got to be the best
You've got to change the world
And use this chance to be heard
Your time is now
Massive Attack, "Paradise Circus"
t's unfortunate that when we feel a storm
We can roll ourselves over 'cause we're uncomfortable
Oh well, the devil makes us sin
But we like it when we're spinning in his grip
Love is like a sin, my love,
For the ones that feel it the most
Look at her with her eyes like a flame
She will love you like a fly will never love you again
It's unfortunate that when we feel a storm
We can roll ourselves over when we're uncomfortable
Oh well, the devil makes us sin
But we like it when we're spinning in his grip
Love is like a sin, my love,
For the one that feels it the most
Look at her with a smile like a flame
She will love you like a fly will never love you again
Muse, "Take a Bow"
Corrupt
You're corrupt
Bring corruption to all that you touch
Hold
You behold
And beholden for all that you've done
And spin
Cast a spell
Cast a spell on the country you run
And risk
You will risk
You will risk all their lives and their souls
And burn
You will burn
You will burn in hell, yeah you'll burn in hell
You'll burn in hell
Yeah you'll burn in hell
For your sins
And our freedom's consuming itself
What we've become
It's contrary to what we want
Take a bow
Death
You bring death, and destruction to all that you touch
Pay
You must pay
You must pay for your crimes against the earth
Yeah hex
Feed the hex
Feed the hex on the country you love
Now beg
You will beg
You will beg for their lives and their souls
Now burn
You will burn
You will burn in hell, yeah you'll burn in hell
You'll burn in hell
Yeah you'll burn in hell
You'll burn in hell
Yeah you'll burn in hell
For your sins
Regina Spektor, "Lacrimosa"
We keep on burying our dead
We keep on planting their bones in the ground
But they won't grow, the sun doesn't help
The rain doesn't help
If my garden would have a fence
Then the rabbits couldn't just come in
And sit on the grass and eat all the flowers
And shit
Hi, I'm Icarus
I'm falling down
Man for judgement must prepare me
Spare oh god and mercy
Spare
Man I have a terrible feeling
That somethings gone awful wrong with the world
Is it something we made
Is it something we ate
Is it something we drank
Hi I'm Icarus
I'm falling
From the dust of earth
Returning back for judgement
We must prepare
Spare oh god and mercy
Spare me
Lacrimosa
Lacrimosa
They keep on burying our dead
They keep on planting their bones in the ground
But they won't grow
The sun doesn't help
And all we've got isn't a giant crop of names
And dates
Hi I'm Icarus, I'm falling down
On this day of tears and mourning
From the dust of earth returning
Man for judgement must
Spare me, spare oh god and mercy
Spare me
Lacrimosa
Lacrimosa
Panic! at the Disco, "Oh Glory"
I can only hope it’s true enough
That every little thing I do for love
Redeems me from the moments I deem worthy
Of the worst things that I’ve done
And saves me from myself
The times of envy
When I’m missing everyone
If I wake in the morning
I only need two more miracles to be a saint
Everything I promised everyone I'd be
Well I just ain't (ain't, ain't, ain't)
Lately it seems like,
Everybody's sick, everybody's died (everybody's died)
Build myself a wall up on happy highs
Know in my heart that my head is lying, lying
Oh glory
I think I see you ‘round the bend
And I think I’d try any poison to get there in the end
Oh glory
When I’m looking past the silken sheets
Take a breath to notice I’m between
Every little piece of threaded memories
That constitute your dreams
If I wake in the morning
I only need two more miracles to be a saint
Everything I promised everyone I'd be
Well I just ain't (ain't, ain't, ain't)
Lately it seems like,
Everybody's sick, everybody's died (everybody's died)
Build myself a wall up on happy highs
Know in my heart that my head is lying, lying
Oh glory
I think I see you ‘round the bend
And I think I’d try any poison to get there in the end
Oh glory
Oh glory
I think I see you ‘round the bend
And I think I’d try any poison to get there in the end
Oh glory
I think I see you ‘round the bend
And I think I’d try any poison to get there in the end
Lately it seems like,
Everybody's sick, everybody's died (everybody's died)
Build myself a wall up on happy highs
Know in my heart that my head is lying, lying
Oh glory
I think I see you ‘round the bend
And I think I’d try any poison to get there in the end
Oh glory
Oh glory
I think I see you ‘round the bend
And I think I’d try any poison to get there in the end
Oh glory
Oh glory
Oh glory
Elliott Smith, "Son of Sam"
Something's happening
Don't speak too soon
I told the boss off, made my move
Got nowhere to go
Son of Sam
Son of the shining path, the clouded mind
The couple killer each and every time
I'm not uncomfortable feeling weird
Lonely leered, options disappeared
But I know what to do
Son of Sam, son of a doctor's touch, a nurse's love
Acting under orders from above
King for a day
Son of Sam
Son of the shining path, the clouded mind
The couple killer running out of time
Shiva opens her arms now
To make sure I don't get too far
I may talk in my sleep tonight
Cos I don't know what I am
I'm a little like you
More like Son of Sam
Depeche Mode, "Halo"
You wear guilt
Like shackles on your feet
Like a halo in reverse
I can feel
The discomfort in your seat
And in your head it's worse
There's a pain
A famine in your heart
An aching to be free
Can't you see
All love's luxuries
Are here for you and me
And when our worlds
They fall apart
When the walls come tumbling in
Though we may deserve it
It will be worth it
Bring your chains
Your lips of tragedy
And fall into my arms
And when our worlds
They fall apart
When the walls come tumbling in
Though we may deserve it
It will be worth it
Trivia and Notes
- Can speak French fluently.
- Has a working knowledge of conversational Russian, as well as complex medical terms to help diagnose patients. She cannot read a word of the language.
- At Hiro Nakamura's confusion, Odessa determined she must know Japanese in the future, so she set out to learn it. She occupies much of her free time studying the language and can read the various Kana, but only a handful of Kanji.
- Currently studying Spanish so that she might read the copy of Ficciones she acquired from the late Mateo Ruiz.
- Name on her government-issued ID says Odessa Gale Price. The assumed middle name comes from Daphne's nickname for her. Gale, is short for Nightingale.
- Kept a journal at the behest of Doctor Bella Sheridan.
- Has had a keen interest in Astronomy since her youth, despite having never seen the stars for herself until her mid-twenties.
- Once owned, and can play, a harpsichord, as well as the piano.
- Terrified of heights.
- Enjoys rollercoasters despite this fact.
- After being presumed dead in the explosion that all but leveled Eagle Electric, and believing everyone she could turn to was dead, found her way to the Midwest where she took on the alias Brooke Lynwood and began robbing small-town banks in Minnesota and Iowa with the aid of her ability to support her life on the run. She still has her haul stashed away somewhere and intends to retrieve it someday.
- Loves cherry cobbler.
- Owned a calico Persian cat named Schrödinger, currently in the care of Robyn Quinn.
- Rarely ever seen in anything but high-heeled shoes. On the rare occasion that she absolutely cannot wear heels - and there are very few occasions where she can't wear high heels, if you're asking her - she can be found wearing Converse high tops. And always, always are her shoes in a bright, possibly retina offending pattern or colour.
- If one ever spots Odessa Price in sedate shoes, they should be concerned.
- Romance films are her guilty pleasure. Favourites are Closer and Pretty Woman.
- Secretly covets the Kensei sword.
- Tone deaf. Will sing, when alone, to herself absently to entertain, fill silence, or calm her nerves.
- Chose the name Joy for herself at Kurt's suggestion, after Joy Page of Casablanca fame. The two love the film.
- Disorder table generated from the questionnaire lifted from this forum post.